| Location | Scunthorpe |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 05/01/2007 |
| Date of Death | 05/01/2007 |
| Visitors | 5,204 since 15/09/2008 |
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This site is for my darling daughter Julie.
Just to let you all know the picture is acctually of her identicat twin Kyla. i dont haev any of julie and this is what she would have looked like.
we all miss you so much. i have cre-ated this site to try and let other know what we went through together baby.
i feel prgnant at 18 and found out 2 weeks before my 19th.
i had my forst scan at 8 weeks which showed that i had twins. you my darling and my darling Kyla who is still with us today.
sadly though they had told me that i had lost you allready i was so sad i made myself sick.
i then went back at 12 weeks gone and they re-scaned me. i was watching that screen thinking please have got it wrong. and to my amazement you was still there and you had grown. i was happy until they said thats not possible.
they then told me that you didnt have a heart beat at all. you had passed allready but was still growing.
i then found out i had a condition called TRAPS which means Twin Reveresed Artierial Perfusion Sequance (it can be googled but be carefull what you can find can be very very disturbing) this condition happens 1 in 35,000 pregnancies and only happens in identical twins or more.
i was so heart broken. i just cried and cried
so i carried you both because if they would have taken you away it would have hurt Kyla too.
you continued to grow alongside Kyla. then you had a big growth spurt and ended up bigger than Kyla. they all worried as Kylas little body had to work fo you both. her heart supplied you with the blood she had just had.
i ended up in hospital with bad back pains and my abdomen was tight. they said a water infection had sent me into back labour at 28 weeks theis was on xmas 2006. thye put me on anti-biotics. i then went home on xmas day and spent the rest of the day with family.
at night i began to itch really really bad. i was making myself bleed. my mum. (your nanna) said its not right so again i went to the hospital.
it turned out to be the anti-bs i was allergic to them. they had given me coliastasis.
i then went for a check up at 30 weeks to check on my liver. i was having little pairs sread out and irregular so i though it was braxton hikks.
the Dr who saw me scaned me to see how Kyla was doing and She was fine. her weight had caught up to yours by then. you were both the same size.
he told me i was having contractions and needed me to say in. i had allreaddy had the steroids last time so i couldent have them again.
i had been ruched up to the delivery suite. stripped off of all my clothes and a hospital gown put on. and yes it was one with the big gaping strip down the back that shows your backside to the world.
i was put on a monitor to measur the contractions. they were still irregular. i spent the whole night in that room apart from toilet breaks.
i woke in the morning after this really bad pain and needed to be sick so i dashed off to the toilet and threw up in the toilet. as i was doing that i felt this little pop then a gush. i was so emmbarrased i thought i had wet myself but it was my waters breaking at 30 weeks and 4 days.
within 2 hours you big sister Kyla was born screaming into the world. she was so small and fridgile they had to take her away to help her survive. they then geve me an epidural to give birth to you my darling. i then had you at 1.18PM i couldent bring myself to see you daling. you had been an angel for 22 weeks with me. i just wanted to remeber you looking exactly like your big sis. your nanna had to register you too as i had to be in hospital for a week because i was weak. i requested that you be cremated. it breaks my heart now but i couldent even come toyour funeral. i feel so guilty for it.. im so so sorry baby.
Kyla misses you hun. shes such a sweet little girl and im sure you two would have been so mischevious together lol.
Kyla is still very poorly though darling. she has alot of problems but dont worry we are coping just fine.
i hope your having so much fun playing with all the other angels i really do and i hope you keep on watching us from up there.
if only id get to meet you just once i could see your beautiful face my darling.
i love you so much.
love mummy
(Jackie)
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i carried my angel for 22 weeks. if anyone else has been through this please dont feel alone.
i have felt so alone for the past 2 years as i am yet to speak to another person who suffered this evil condition.
thanx all for taking the time to read this.
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✰........... I Light These Candles That Shine So Bright, And Wishing You Sweet Dreams Tonight .Love N Hugs Debbie...xx..xx......✰
with love...xxx
an angel with the book of life
wrote down your babys birth
and whispered when she closed that book
too beautiful for this earth.....xxx
with love on your angel day god bless
♥ MERRY CHRISTMAS ღ ♥ღ MERRY CHRISTMAS ♥
Tributes For Week Commencing 20th December
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FOR MONDAY
ღ The Golden Gates Will Open ღ
ღ All Our Love Will Then Unfold ღ
ღ Reunited With Our Angelsღ
ღ Always Forever We Will Hold ღ
FOR TUESDAY
ღ When ties of love are brokenღ
ღ And loved ones have to partღ
ღ It leaves a wound that never healsღ
ღ In an ever-aching heartღ
FOR WEDNESDAY
ღ Everyday We Love You-ღ
ღ Everyday We Cry- ღ
ღ Everyday Is Hard For Us-ღ
ღ Your The Reason Whyღ
FOR THURSDAY
ღ The hands of time keep turning.ღ
ღ The months have slipped awayღ .
ღ But for those who love you,ღ
ღ It feels like yesterdayღ
CHRISTMAS EVE
Christmas without you here with me,
Can never possibly be the same.
But I carry an Angel within my heart;
One so precious, who has your name.
An Angel forever watching over me,
At Christmas time, and over the year.
Although you can't be here anymore,
Inside my heart, you are so very near.
There is no special present for you,
Wrapped up under my Christmas tree.
But I have a greater gift to give to you;
All the love you can still feel from me.
No, Christmas time without you here,
Could not ever possibly be the same.
But, I have had the precious gift of you,
And the memories and love, will remain.
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CHRISTMAS DAY
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BOXING DAY
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Memories
Memories are a special house
We build inside ourselves
Where love and laughter linger,
Where all our past life dwells.
On holidays like Boxing Day
We can draw upon the store,
Reliving happy times
And feeling all that warmth once more.
Wherever we may travel,
This house is always there
To help to blend the old and new,
To build on...grow...and share.
This house can never get too full,
Just grow from floor to floor,
Because the joy of memories
Is always making more.
UNKNOWN
DEAR FRIEND’S WISHING YOU
AND YOUR ANGEL'S
A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS
AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR
♥ MERRY CHRISTMAS ღ ♥ღ MERRY CHRISTMAS ♥
...........Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
.....….Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
♥ MERRY CHRISTMAS ღ ♥ღ MERRY CHRISTMAS ♥
These are my footprints,
So perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints,
Never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
For now I have my wings.
These tiny footprints were meant,
For other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
In the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
Of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
If you just give me a chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
And call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints,
Are found on mommy's heart.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll NEVER truly part
i love this poem. means alot to me. Xxx
hiya baby
hiya babe. im so sorry ive been away for so long i lost my password and my email address was blocked. although ive not been on here ive been thinking about you.
i love you so much darling and i hope your having fun.
Xxx
big hugs and kisses from your loving mummy and Kyla
Xxx
Happy Birthday In Heaven - by Winnie Lovett
"Happy Birthday Julie"
It's sure to be the best one yet,
Though you left us here behind.
Did you think that we'd forget?
Your cake this year, will surely be,
A beauty to behold.
With the icing made of Silver,
And the candles made of Gold.
Yes, your birthday in Heaven,
Will be such a grand affair.
And I know you'll look so lovely,
With a halo in your hair.
The Angels will come from everywhere,
To sing your birthday song.
And I know they'll be so happy,
That you've joined, God's Happy Throng.
No I can't send a card this year,
Or give a gift so fine.
So I'll just send a special prayer,
To that wonderful Daughter of yours.
To The Child I'll Never Know - by Gloria Dianne Hall
How can I say Good Bye
When I never said Hello,
Why does my heart grieve
For the child I'll never know?
You were a part of me
For just a little while.
I grieve because I'll never see
The magic in your smile.
I grieve for all the unsaid words
That you will never say.
I grieve that I will never see
You happily at play.
I grieve for all the lullabies
That will remain unsung.
I grieve because I'll never see
Your face gleaming like the sun.
I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.
I grieve for all the tomorrows
That will never be.
I grieve because God chose
To take you back from me.
You live among the Angels now
Your earthly mission done,
You will be so dearly missed
Good-Bye my little one. XX
Born Still - by Unknown Author
Do you know how hard it is
To hold a baby who doesn’t cry?
Do you know how hard it is
To tell that baby Goodbye?
Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your child should be there
Resting her sleepy head?
Do you know how hard it is
Feeling you’re to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You'll always feel the same.
Do you know the heartache
Knowing she's gone for good?
And feeling that you didn't
Do all the things you could.
Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it's Gods will?
Do you know the emptiness
When your child is born still?
Unfortunately we do XX
2ND OCTOBER 2009
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Wishing You A Good Evening And Thinking of You with Love.....
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